Janine,Ai esta nossa troca de email

Janine,
Ai esta nossa troca de emails. Para te contextualizar, tivemos uma noite maravilhosa em Londres. Na hora de dormir, me deu medo, me deu necessidade de ouvir algo mais dele. Acabei dizendo que eu estava indo para um lugar de azaracao, onde as pessoas ficam loucas, e que me chateava nao saber qual a nossa posicao no relacionamento. Eu disse que me sentia so e que queria que ele tivesse me chamado pro casamento. Ele disse que ja tinhamos conversado sobre deixar as coisas sem rotulos por enquanto. Ficou tudo bem e no dia seguinte acordamos juntos, tivemos relacao, foi otimo. Na hora que eu tava indo embora, vi uma imagem de santa terezinha em cima do piano da casa que ele divide com outras duas pessoas. Resolvi que ia ter calma e confiar mas fiquei na duvida como ele lidaria com isso. Quando comecei a ler o email dele achei que ele estava so se explicando ate ver a parte em que ele fala que nossa historia deveria parar por aqui. Achei covarde e estou chateada de nao ter a chance de ve-lo dar uma virada e nossa relacao crescer aos pouquinhos. Eu gosto muito dele - nao pq somos iguais nas maluquices mas pq as coisas boas que trocamos me traz muita felicidade.
Desculpe a chateacao - qq retorno seu sera de muita ajuda.
bjs e obrigada
saudades!!!

Forwarded conversation
Subject: You & Me
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From: Edward Watts
Date: 2013/8/19
To: "[e-mail]"


Dear Roberta,



How are you doing? I hope all’s good and that you’re having an excellent time in Croatia. I know you will be.



I got back to Rio yesterday after another MENTAL weekend. The wedding was good, loads of fun but unbelievably heavy. Still, even through the fog of alcohol, it was incredible to see one of my crazy friends in such a traditional English church, having such a traditional ceremony, and looking so happy about it.



I wanted to write because our night together in London and the wedding left me thinking about you a lot. I wish we could talk face to face. But you’re having a wonderful holiday, and I’m about to return to the frontline, so I have no option but to write before the storm swallows me again.



Roberta, I want you to know that I think the world of you. You are my first and only Brazilian girl, but so much more than that. You are so smart, so beautiful, so funny. I feel that we understand each other: we know each other’s struggles; we’ve both lived through crazy times and crazy jobs; we both know about the lure of the wild that is so difficult to resist, so hard to escape. I admire you for all you have done to find a new path through life and I appreciate all the support you have given me while I’ve been doing this nutty project. Every moment I’ve spent with you has been special.



I am sorry that my life has made things so difficult for us; I’m sorry that the time we have had together has been so snatched. I totally understand why you got angry late that night in London. It has not been fair on you that we have not had the space to have a proper shot at our relationship, because of me.



Honestly, I am no longer myself. This job – not just the filming but all the other crap, the politics, the lack of rest, the weeks and months that it has lasted – has worn me down, and worn me down, until I feel that I have almost nothing left to give to anyone. I am in survival mode where my focus is just to get up in the morning and survive the day and then get to sleep as fast as I can. That is not the person I am, or the person I want to be for you. It’s no fun.



However, I also have to face the truth: right now, I do not feel ready or able to give the kind of energy to our relationship that it needs and deserves. The filming has taken all that I have. I need to concentrate on finishing it, going home and putting the pieces back together again. I am very sorry. But I think it is better to say it clearly now rather than leaving you feeling frustrated and confused and me guilty for doing what I need to do to get to the end of this.



Perhaps one day we may find each other again when circumstances have changed. Perhaps one day I may move to Rio or you may come to London, and we will have a second chance, a real chance this time, to do it properly. But I feel that’s impossible right now. To keep on trying would, I fear, only ruin what we have had. For that reason, I feel it needs to come to an end.



I hope you can understand and forgive me. I hope we will stay in touch and stay friends. You are very important to me. I am and always will be one of your greatest admirers and supporters and would hate to lose you from my life.



Thank you for the amazing times. Thank you for all the kindness and love you have shown me. The time we have spent together has been the best thing about my life in Rio.



With love to you, linda.



Ed xx


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From: Roberta Fortuna
Date: 2013/8/20
To: Edward Watts


Oi Edi,

I was going to tell you that the sun here seems to shine brighter although it doesn't burn you. Croatians can be very much like brazilians or sicilians - sweet and soft but still brutal in some ways. After our night in London I was hoping you would understand that I've got my moments but they are fire and don't really represent how I usually feel things. I only carry what suits me.

Everytime time I was away I thought how great you made me feel and how much fun I have with you despite the tough times. I got confused in London because your company again made so much sense to me. Then I woke up in the morning and you're there with those blue eyes and santa teresa on the top of the piano. I believed things could be simple and was hoping to show you my tanned bumbum. I was sure that indeed leaving this happening but unfold would also be the best for me at the moment.

Anyway I don't think it's only about last night but also about the 'frames' we choose to see life. Just as we said that afternoon in Arpoador... For me life is absolutely fabulous and right in its craziness and difficulties. It is built each day at a time with calma. We are similar in the struggles but also (and mainly) in the pleasures and in the joy.

You don't upset me for not being able to promise me the 'world' now. You upset me for not trusting the good, saying this by email and for avoiding us to decide together what to do later.

You've got an almost finished beautiful film which will open you many doors despite all the windows you had to break. You've got a lucky woman who was looking in the same direction as you. You are also lucky Eduardo. Anyway, I've been willing to accept the things that I don't understand or agree this year. I truly hear and respect what you say.

Eu gostaria de te ver antes de deixar o Brasil. Para mim é importante. No matter what, I think we shouldn't look towards the dark after all.

Beijos,
X R.


Em 19/08/2013, às 18:21, Edward Watts escreveu:

Resultados (Inglês) 1:

janine
ai this our email exchange. to contextualize you, we had a wonderful evening in London. at bedtime, scared me, gave me need to hear anything more from him. I ended up saying I was going to a place of curse where people get mad, and that bothered me not knowing what our position in the relationship.I said that I felt so wanted and that he had called me to the wedding. he said he had already talked about leaving things without labels for now. everything went well and the next day we woke up together, we had relationship was great. by the time I was leaving, I saw a picture of santa terezinha on the piano from the house he shares with two others.I decided it would be calm and trust but I was in doubt how he would handle it. when I started reading his email I thought he was so explaining it until you see the part where he says that our history should stop here. I thought a coward and I'm upset for not having the chance to see him take a turn and our relationship to grow little by little.I like him very much - we are not equal in craziness pq pq but good things exchanged brings me much happiness.
sorry for the hassle - qq its return will be of much help. bjs

and thank you miss!


forwarded conversation subject: you & me


------------------------ from: edward watts
date: 2013/8 / 19
to: "fortuna.roberta @ gmail.com"


dear Roberta,



how are you doing? i hope all's good que and you're having an excellent time in croatia. i know you will be.



i got back to the river yesterday after another mental weekend. the wedding was good, loads of fun but unbelievably heavy. Still, even through the fog of alcohol, it was incredible to see one of my crazy friends in such a traditional church Inglês,having such a traditional ceremony, and looking so happy about it.



i wanted to write because our night together in london and the wedding left me thinking about you a lot. i wish we could talk face to face. but you're having a wonderful holiday, and I'm about to return to the frontline, so i have no option but to write before the storm swallows me again.



Roberta,i want you to know that i think the world of you. you are my first and only brazilian girl, but so much more than that. you are so smart, so beautiful, so funny. i feel That We understand each other: we know each other's struggles; Both've lived through crazy times and crazy jobs, we both know about the lure of the wild that is so Difficult to resist, so hard to escape.i admire you for all you have done to find a new path through life and i appreciate all the support you have Given me while I've been doing this nutty project. every moment I've spent with you has been special.



i am sorry que my life has made things so Difficult for us, I'm sorry que the team we have had together has been snatched so.i totally understand why you got angry que late night in london. it has not been fair on you That We have not had the space to have a proper shot at our relationship, because of me.



honestly, i am no longer myself. this job - not just the filming but all the other crap, the politics, the lack of rest, the weeks and months it has Lasted que - has worn me down, and worn me down,until i feel that i have almost nothing left to give to anyone. i am in Survival Mode where my focus is just to get up in the morning and survive the day and then get to sleep the fast as i can. that is not the person i am, or the person i want to be for you. it's no fun.



However, i also have to face the truth: right now,i do not feel ready or able to give the kind of energy to our relationship que it needs and deserves. the filming has taken all that i have. i need to concentrate on finishing it, going home and putting the pieces back together again. i am very sorry.but i think it is better to say Clearly it now rather than leaving you feeling frustrated and confused and me guilty for doing what i need to to to get to the end of this.



perhaps one day we may find each other again When Circumstances have changed. perhaps one day i may move to the river or you may come to london, and we will have a second chance, a real chance this time, to do it properly.but i feel that's impossible right now. would to keep on trying, i fear, only ruin what we have had. que is reason, i feel it needs to come to an end.



i hope you can understand and forgive me. i hope we will stay in touch and stay friends. you are very important to me. i am and always will be one of your greatest admirers and supporters and would hate to lose you from my life.



thank you for the amazing times. thank you for all the kindness and love you have shown me. the team we have spent together has been the best thing about my life in the river.



with love to you, beautiful.






ed xx ----------
from: roberta fortune
date: 20/08/2013
to: edward watts

hi
edi

i was going to tell you que here the sun seems to shine brighter although it does not burn you. Croatians can be very much like brazilians or sicilians - sweet and soft but still brutal in some ways. after our night in london i was hoping you would understand that I've got my moments but They are fire and do not really Represent how I usually feel things. i only carry what suits me.

team everytime i was away i thought how great you made me feel and how much fun i have with you Despite the tough times. i got confused in london because your company again made so much sense to me. then i woke up in the morning and you're there with Those blue eyes and santa teresa on the top of the piano. i Believed Things could be simple and was hoping to show you my ass tanned.i was sure que indeed leaving this happening but unfold Also would be the best for me at the moment.

anyway i do not think it's only about last night but Also about the 'frames' we choose to see life. just as we said que afternoon in harpoon ... for me life is absolutely fabulous and right in its craziness and Difficulties. it is built each day at a time with calm.we are in the similar struggles but Also (and Mainly) in the pleasures and in the joy.

you do not upset me is not being able to promise me the 'world' now. you upset me for not trusting the good, saying this by email and is avoiding us to decide together what to do later.

've got an almost finished beautiful Which film will open many doors you Despite all the windows you had to break .you've got a lucky woman who was looking in the same-direction as you. Also you are lucky eduardo. anyway, I've been willing to accept the things that i do not understand or agree this year. i truly hear and respect what you say.

I'd like to see you before leaving Brazil. for me is important. in matter what, i think we should not look towards the dark after all. Kisses

, x
r.


on 19.08.2013, at 18:21, edward watts wrote:

Resultados (Inglês) 2:

Janine,
here's our exchange of emails. To contextualize, we had a wonderful evening in London. At bedtime, frightened me, gave me need to hear something more from him. Just saying I was going to a place of azaracao, where people go crazy, and they nagged no know what our position in the relationship. I said that I felt and I wish he had called me to the wedding. He said he already had talked about leaving things without labels for now. Everything went well and the next day we woke up together, had relationship, was great. By the time I was leaving, I saw an image of santa terezinha on the piano in the House that he shares with two other people. I decided I was going to get calm and trust but was in doubt as he could handle it. When I first read the e-mail from him I thought he was just explaining to see the part where he says that our story should stop here. I thought coward and I'm pissed of not having the chance to see him take a turn and our relationship grow bit by bit. I like him very much-not because we are equal in the crazy but because the good things that change brings me happiness.
excuse the chateacao-qq back will be a lot of help.

kisses and thank you miss!

Forwarded conversation
Subject: You Ms Me
------------------------

From: Edward Watts < [e-mail] >
Date: 8/19/2013
To: "[e-mail]" < [e-mail] >


Dear Roberta,



How are you doing? I hope all's good and that you're having an excellent time in Croatia. I know you will be.



I got back to River yesterday after another MENTAL weekend. The wedding was good, loads of fun but unbelievably heavy. Still, even through the fog of alcohol, it was incredible to see one of my crazy friends in such a traditional English church, having such a traditional ceremony, and looking so happy about it!



I wanted to write because our night together in London and the wedding left me thinking about you a lot. I wish we could talk face to face. But you're having a wonderful holiday, and I'm about to return to the frontline, so I have no option but to write before the storm swallows me again.



Roberta, I want you to know that I think the world of you. You are my first and only Brazilian girl, but so much more than that. You are so smart, so beautiful, so funny. I feel that we understand each other: we know each other's struggles; we've both lived through crazy times and crazy jobs; we both know about the lure of the wild that is so difficult to resist, so hard to escape. I admire you for all you have done to find a new path through life and I appreciate all the support you have given me while I've been doing this nutty project. Every moment I've spent with you has been special.



I am sorry that my life has made things so difficult for us; I'm sorry that the time we have had together has been so snatched. I totally understand why you got angry late that night in London. It has not been fair on you that we have not had the space to have a proper shot at our relationship, because of



Honestly, I am no longer myself. This job-not just the filming but all the other crap, the politics, the lack of rest, the weeks and months that it has lasted – has worn me down, and worn me down, until I feel that I have almost nothing left to give to anyone. I am in survival mode where my focus is just to get up in the morning and survive the day and then get to sleep as fast as I can. That is not the person I am, or the person I want to be for you. It's no fun.



However, I also have to face the truth: right now, I do not feel ready or able to give the kind of energy to our relationship that it needs and deserves. The filming has taken all that I have. I need to concentrate on finishing it, going home and putting the pieces back together again. I am very sorry. But I think it is better to say it clearly now rather than leaving you feeling frustrated and confused and guilty is me doing what I need to do to get to the end of this.



Perhaps one day we may find each other again when general circumstances have changed. Perhaps one day I may move to River or you may come to London, and we will have a second chance, a real chance this time, to do it properly. But I feel that's impossible right now. To keep on trying would, I fear, only ruin what we have had. For that reason, I feel it needs to come to an end.



I hope you can understand and forgive me. I hope we will stay in touch and stay friends. You are very important to me. I am and always will be one of your greatest admirers and supporters and would hate to lose you from my life.



Thank you for the amazing times. Thank you for all the kindness and love you have shown me. The time we have spent together has been the best thing about my life in Rio.



With love to you, linda.



Ed xx


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From: Roberta Fortune < [e-mail] >
Date: 8/20/2013
To: Edward Watts < [e-mail] >


Hi Edi,

I was going to tell you that the sun here seems to shine brighter although it doesn't burn you. Croatians can be very much like brazilians or sicilians-sweet and soft but still brutal in some ways. After our night in London I was hoping you would understand that I've got my moments but they are fire and don't really represent how I usually feel things. I only carry what suits me.

Everytime time I was away I thought how great you made me feel and how much fun I have with you despite the tough times. I got confused in London because your company again made so much sense to me. Then I woke up in the morning and you're there with those blue eyes and santa teresa on the top of the piano. I believed things could be simple and was hoping to show you my tanned butt. I was sure that indeed leaving this happening but unfold would also be the best for me at the moment.

Anyway I don't think it's only about last night but also about the ' frames ' we choose to see life. Just as we said that afternoon in Arpoador. For me life is absolutely fabulous and right in its craziness and difficulties. It is built each day at a time with ease. We are similar in the struggles but also (and mainly) in the pleasures and in the joy.

You don't upset me is not being able to promise me the ' world ' now. You upset me for not trusting the good, saying this by email and is avoiding us to decide together what to do later.

You've got an almost finished beautiful film which will open you many doors despite all the windows you had to break. You've got a lucky woman who was looking in the same direction as you. You are also lucky Eduardo. Anyway, I've been willing to accept the things that I don't understand or agree this year. I truly hear and respect what you say.

I'd like to see you before leaving Brazil. For me it's important. No matter what, I think we shouldnt look towards the dark after all.

Kisses,
X R.


In 8/19/2013, at 18:21, Edward Watts < [e-mail] > wrote:

Resultados (Inglês) 3:

Janine,
Ai is our exchange of emails. For te contextualize, we had a wonderful evening in London. At bedtime, gave me fear, gave me needs to hear something more from him. I Ended up saying that I was going to a place of azaracao, where people are mad, and that I am chateava does not know what our position in the relationship.I said that I felt alone, and that he wanted that he had called me pro marriage. He said that we had already talked about leaving things without labels for a while. Everything was well and the next day we woke up together, we had relationship, it was great. At the time that I was going though, I saw an image of santa terezinha on top of the piano of the house that he shares with two other people.I decided that I would be calm and trust but stayed in doubt as he would deal with this. When I started to read the email from him i thought that he was only explaining to see the part in which he speaks that our history should stop here. I thought It was cowardly and I am upset for not having the chance to see you give a face and our relationship grow to do things in dribs and drabs.I like him very much - we are not equal in fp5 fp5 crazy ones but the good things that we exchanged brings me much happiness.
Sorry to annoying - qq return their will be a lot of help.
bjs and obliged
miss!!!

Forwarded conversation
Subject: You & Me
------------------------

From: Edward Watts
Date: 2013 /8/19
Rrect: "[e-mail] "


Dear Roberta,



How are you doing? I hope all's good and that you're having an excellent time in Croatia. I know you will be.



I got back to Rio yesterday after another MENTAL weekend. The wedding was good, loads of fun but unbelievably heavy. Still, even through the fog of alcohol, it was incredible to see one of my crazy friends in such a traditional English church,Having such a traditional ceremony, and obtaining only happy about it.



I wanted to write minimized our night together in London and the wedding left me thinking about you a lot. I wish we could talk face to face. But you're having a wonderful holiday, and I'm about to return to the frontline, only I elicited no option but to write before the storm swallows me again.



Roberta,I want you to know that I think the world of you. You are my first and only Brazilian girl, but only much more than that. You aer only smart, only beautiful, only funny. I feel that we understand each other: we know eahc other's struggles; we've both lived through crazy times and crazy jobs; we both know about the lure of the wild that is just difficult to resist, only hard to escape.I admire you for all you have done to find a new path through life and I appreciate all the support you have given me while I've been doing this nutty project. Every moment I've spent with you sah been special.



I am sorry that my life sah only made things difficult for us; I'm sorry that the time we have had together has been only snatched.I totally understand why you got angry late that night in London. It has not been fair on you that we have not had the space to elicited the proper shot at our relationship, because of me.



Honestly, I am no longer myself. This job - not just the filming but all the other table, the politics, the lack of rest, the weeks and months that it lasted - sah sah worn me down, and worn me down,Until I feel that I have almost nothing left to give to anyone. I am in survival mode where my focus is just to get up in the morning and survive the day and then get to sleep the fast the I can. That is not the person I am, or the person I want to be is you. It's no fun.



como sempre, I also have to face the bypass juvenile hall by enrolling: right now,I not feel ready or able to give the kind of energy to our relationship that it needs and deserves. The filming has taken all that I elicited. I need to concentrate on Finishing it, going home and putting the pieces back together again. I am very sorry.But I think it is better to Say it clearly now rather than leaving you feeling frustrated and confused and me guilty is doing what I need to from to get to the end of this.



Perhaps one day we may find eahc other again when of have changed. Perhaps one day I may move to Rio or you may come to London, and we will have a second chance, a real chance this time, to do it properly.But I feel that's impossible right now. To keep on trying would, I fear, only ruin what we have had. For that reason, I feel it needs to come to an end.



I hope you can understand and forgive me. I hope we will stay in touch and stay friends. You are very important to me. I am and always will be one of your greatest admirers and model serves as a and would hate to lose you from my life.



Thank you for the amazing times. Thank you for all the kindness and love you have shown me. The time we have spent together has been the best thing about my life in Rio.



With love to you, linda.



Ed xx


ormore
From: Roberta Fortuna
Date: 2013 /8/20
Rrect: Edward Watts


Hey Edi,

I was going to tell you that the sun seems to shine brighter here although it doesn't burn you. Croatians can be very much like unlike theprevious or sicilians - sweet and soft but still brutal in sum ways. After our night in London I was hoping you would understand that I've got my moments but they are fire and then't really represent how I usually feel things. I only carry what suits me.

Everytime time I was away I thought how great you made me feel and how much fun I have with you despite the tough times. I got confused in London minimized your company again made only much sense to me. Then I woke up in the morning and you're there with those blue eyes and santa Teresa on the top of the piano. I believed things could be simple and was hoping to show you my tanned bum.I was sure that indeed leaving this happening breakup unfold would also be the best for me at the moment.

Anyway In't think it's only about last night but also about the 'frames' we choose to see life. Just the we said that british afternoon in Arpoador ... Is my life is absolutely fabulous and right in its craziness and difficulties questionnaire. It s built eahc day at the time with calm.We are similar in the struggles but also (and mainly) in the pleasures and in the joy.

You ofn't upset me is not being able to promise me the 'world' now. You upset me for not trusting the good, saying this by email and is avoiding bogus us to decide together what to the later.

You've got an almost finished beautiful film which will open you fairview park doors despite all the windows you had to break.You've got a lucky woman who was looking in the same direction to you. You are also lucky Eduardo. Anyway, I've been willing to accept the things that In't understand or agree this year. I truly hear and respect what you Say.

I'd like to see you before leaving Brazil. For me it is important. No matter what, I think we shouldn't look toward the dark after all.

Kisses,
X R.


On 19 /08/2013 , the 6:21 pm, Edward Watts wrote: